对不起

原来我是高估了自己的忍耐力

原来我是需要安全感

原来我一点都不坚强

原来放弃也是需要勇气的

原来选择转身离开的人心也是会痛的

原来我还是爱你的

但是我还是残忍地

选择放手

选择离开

选择逃避

选择不再坚持

你会原谅我吗？

原谅

我的软弱

原谅

我的任性

原谅

我一而再地伤害你

你会吗？

谢谢你们

全国赛过了整整一个星期...
AGM 也快到了...
时间真的过得很快...
转眼间我在band已经五年了...
说真的,我觉得我能留下来直到我毕业,我真的觉得很不可思议...
我很感谢band的所有人,让我的中学生涯那么充实...
在band的这五年里我哭过,痛苦过,甚至差点崩溃,想要放弃...
但我很庆幸我咬牙忍过了...
虽然我最痛苦的时候都是在band的日子,但是同时那些也是让我最快乐的时光...
我很想向所有band members尤其是brass part说,谢谢你们...
你们是我最好的战友...
没有你们,我不可能撑那么久...
谢谢你们!!我爱你们!!
希望你们 KWANG HUA BAND 明年会更好!!!

Sat morning

Today is saturday...
N i'm so free tis morning becox.....Today no band practice..
No band practice de sat morning is so weird..
Last thursday i just put on braceses..
Now i reli feel very uncomfortable with it especially when talking n eating..
Pek cek..
Now i still can buzzing,but i dun think i can play instrument within two weeks cox i'll feel pain when i blow the mouth piece...
N "nicest" part is....Next sunday got a performance!!!
Oh god, it's reli a big big challenge to me...
Hope i can get use to the braceses as fast as possible..

18/4/2009

I had deleted my previous blog..Why?Becox there's something tat i think i should forget abt...
Now, i'm very very busy..
Busy with band practices, my studies, n chat with my darling...
Everyday is a tiring day...
I'm so happy tat we finish estancia de formation liao...
It's a good news...
But....
I dun have enough sleep for the whole week n i think this situation will last till june..
I am now so worry abt my studies..
My results are like shit..
The first time in my life i fail my bm..
N without suprise, i fail my chemistry n physics...
Oh my god, with this kind of results i still need to skip classes for at least one or two months?
This year i need to sit for SPM de leh..
Who can help me?!
Reli need to take extra effort to study liao..
But...
Everyday after practice will be so tired, plus after my tuition reli cant tahan liao lo...
Although i can force myself to stay awake but wat's the use if i cant concentrate on my books n cant even remember a single thing??
N now, midyear exam is near!!!
Oh god, wat to do???
I wish i got 48 hours a day..
I hope i'm made of iron..