我想问，我们算什么?
情侣？
没有告白，没有追求，就直接从友情变爱情的情侣？
一对在朋友面前当什么事都没有的情侣？
一对明明在同一间学院却连碰一面都难的情侣？
一对几乎不了解对方的情侣？
一对在别人眼中根本不是情侣的情侣？
这种关系真的令我觉得很没安全感~
有时我会问自己，这真的是我要的吗？
毕竟是我先喜欢上你的，所以很多时候我都觉得不应该有怨言...
但是我们都已经是情侣了，为什么却好像疏离了?
我明白我们不能也不应该公开我们的关系，
毕竟这是一件很敏感的事，而且很可能伤害到我们不想伤害的人~
几乎所有人面前，我们都只能当做什么事都没有，
不要说牵手，就连眼神都时常避免接触~
谈天时，我们和身边的朋友说的话都比和对方说的来得多~
是我敏感了吗？
我觉得你有点变了~
是因为变成情侣所以我心里要求的更多了，还是你真的变冷淡了呢？
说真的，有时我心满痛的~
你曾经为了她，戒烟、戒酒、戒clubbing，
但现在每一样都回来了~
那我算什么？
她不喜欢你吸烟，喝酒，clubbing，夜归，
你以为我会喜欢吗？
我没彻底阻止你，但你真的听不出我叫你少吸烟的意思吗？
昨天你call我，结果却是找她，
你真的认为我那么厉害什么都不介意吗？
我知道你和她没什么，
但我不是神，我不能做到什么感觉都没有~
有时我真的觉得我爱得好累~
有时真的会想，为什么我爱上的是你？
可是，爱上了就爱上了，
我能做的就是尽力做到最好~
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
14/09/2010
谁来还我那曾经平静的生活？
我不想去爱也不想被爱~
我只要我的家人、学业和朋友~
我讨厌现在的我，那么的不干不脆~
我宁愿我只能暗恋与祝福~
也不想像现在这样充满罪恶感~
我讨厌这种进退两难的感觉~
而且，一切似乎都不由得我决定似的~
我恨透了这种想解决问题却解决不了的无力和无奈感~
为什么问题总要堆在一起？？
什么时候这一切才能结束？？？
我要以前的生活！！！！
我不想去爱也不想被爱~
我只要我的家人、学业和朋友~
我讨厌现在的我，那么的不干不脆~
我宁愿我只能暗恋与祝福~
也不想像现在这样充满罪恶感~
我讨厌这种进退两难的感觉~
而且，一切似乎都不由得我决定似的~
我恨透了这种想解决问题却解决不了的无力和无奈感~
为什么问题总要堆在一起？？
什么时候这一切才能结束？？？
我要以前的生活！！！！
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
18th B'day~
Today is my bday~
Im officially 18 now~^^
Many frens are saying tat i "dai gor lui" jor~
LOL~i know i doesnt act like a 18 years old gal la~
Dun need to remind me tat=p
Was waiting someone's wishes since 12am..
But den i fall asleep abt 12.45~haha~=p
I feel very happy tat i sees tat msg when i wake up~XD
Dunno why feels so tired today~>_<
I was so energetic the whole day since morning until i starting to drive home~
Feels so tired~
Wanted to go onto the bed right after i step into the room..
But cant tahan myself being so dirty~@.@
So unlucky tat, after i finish taking bath, it's already dinner time which means X time for nap~T.T
I know my frens will be saying, just go to bed after dinner la~LOL
But it's reli too early for sleep wei~i will wake up in the midnight if i sleep now~
Anyway,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to myself~^^
Im officially 18 now~^^
Many frens are saying tat i "dai gor lui" jor~
LOL~i know i doesnt act like a 18 years old gal la~
Dun need to remind me tat=p
Was waiting someone's wishes since 12am..
But den i fall asleep abt 12.45~haha~=p
I feel very happy tat i sees tat msg when i wake up~XD
Dunno why feels so tired today~>_<
I was so energetic the whole day since morning until i starting to drive home~
Feels so tired~
Wanted to go onto the bed right after i step into the room..
But cant tahan myself being so dirty~@.@
So unlucky tat, after i finish taking bath, it's already dinner time which means X time for nap~T.T
I know my frens will be saying, just go to bed after dinner la~LOL
But it's reli too early for sleep wei~i will wake up in the midnight if i sleep now~
Anyway,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to myself~^^
Sunday, September 5, 2010
05/09/2010
I know i shouldn't angry..
I know i dun need to get angry either..
But, i just got angry..
Hello mr., im your fren, not your maid..
Am i suppose to know your timetable and help you to type it out??
I know many ppl might say tat i should just leave him alone, and nothing to angry at..
But i just cant tahan tat he this dun care tat dun care!!
Wat the hell his brain is??
I dun even know his grouping how am i going to know his timetable??
He dunn even know his own timetable and he asked me to help him to type and print it out?!
Can he be abit responsible??
Just go online and sign in and copy down the timetable is tat so hard??
I dun mind if he copied down the timetable and asked me to help him to put it into computer and help him print..
Im not angry tat he asking me to help..
Im angry tat he is so irresponsible tat just throw everything to other ppl to help him settle..
And hello~
The first sms you ask me, tmr v got english class or not?
I answered you say no, lecturer still on leave so no class..
Den you say xxx say tat he canceled his leave..
Hello~cant you just tell me, someone said tat his leave canceled d, so are we having english class tmr??
how i know someone told you tat he canceled his leave??
Im not god ok??
Why dun you go check those website which usually post announcement??
Why dun you ask them how they know tat he canceled his leave??
At least if they say they saw it on the notice board or website or facebook, we can go confirm..
You are now telling me tat xxx told you tat xxx's fren tell xxx tat the lecturer canceled his leave and you dint even ask how he know it??
I know it's reli ntg for me to angry abt..
But i reli dunno why i almost got mad at you..
It just make me feels so uncomfortable..
You are asking me a question and you dun believe my answer..
Wat for you asking it??
You got so many other ways to confirm abt it..
And you use this kind of way which wont give you an accurate answer..
I know i dun need to get angry either..
But, i just got angry..
Hello mr., im your fren, not your maid..
Am i suppose to know your timetable and help you to type it out??
I know many ppl might say tat i should just leave him alone, and nothing to angry at..
But i just cant tahan tat he this dun care tat dun care!!
Wat the hell his brain is??
I dun even know his grouping how am i going to know his timetable??
He dunn even know his own timetable and he asked me to help him to type and print it out?!
Can he be abit responsible??
Just go online and sign in and copy down the timetable is tat so hard??
I dun mind if he copied down the timetable and asked me to help him to put it into computer and help him print..
Im not angry tat he asking me to help..
Im angry tat he is so irresponsible tat just throw everything to other ppl to help him settle..
And hello~
The first sms you ask me, tmr v got english class or not?
I answered you say no, lecturer still on leave so no class..
Den you say xxx say tat he canceled his leave..
Hello~cant you just tell me, someone said tat his leave canceled d, so are we having english class tmr??
how i know someone told you tat he canceled his leave??
Im not god ok??
Why dun you go check those website which usually post announcement??
Why dun you ask them how they know tat he canceled his leave??
At least if they say they saw it on the notice board or website or facebook, we can go confirm..
You are now telling me tat xxx told you tat xxx's fren tell xxx tat the lecturer canceled his leave and you dint even ask how he know it??
I know it's reli ntg for me to angry abt..
But i reli dunno why i almost got mad at you..
It just make me feels so uncomfortable..
You are asking me a question and you dun believe my answer..
Wat for you asking it??
You got so many other ways to confirm abt it..
And you use this kind of way which wont give you an accurate answer..
Thursday, September 2, 2010
02/09/2010
OMG~
Damn tired..my sleeping time still cant totally change back yet..>_<
The alarm was ringing for about an hour this morning i only realize tat i should wake up@.@
After brush up and my breakfast,
den go fetch hou kaen go coll..
Today i had classes from 8-5...
Although my classes are not all back to back,
But it's so tiring~>_<
I reli dunno how my frens manage to study by having 3/4/5 classes back to back~
I thought tat malaysian studies would be boring,
but end up quite fun becox of my frens..
Lolz..reli is non-stop laughing in the class for tat 2 and a half hours..
Luckily im in the same class with them, if not i think i will fall asleep after half an hour in the class..
So lucky tat we finish the class half an hour earlier (4.30pm)..
If the class finish at 5pm, it will be damn jam outside..
Phiew...
My mum's car is having problem and going to the workshop tmr~
So they are using my car tmr~
Can't go anywhere without my car, luckily dint plan to go out tmr~
Damn tired..my sleeping time still cant totally change back yet..>_<
The alarm was ringing for about an hour this morning i only realize tat i should wake up@.@
After brush up and my breakfast,
den go fetch hou kaen go coll..
Today i had classes from 8-5...
Although my classes are not all back to back,
But it's so tiring~>_<
I reli dunno how my frens manage to study by having 3/4/5 classes back to back~
I thought tat malaysian studies would be boring,
but end up quite fun becox of my frens..
Lolz..reli is non-stop laughing in the class for tat 2 and a half hours..
Luckily im in the same class with them, if not i think i will fall asleep after half an hour in the class..
So lucky tat we finish the class half an hour earlier (4.30pm)..
If the class finish at 5pm, it will be damn jam outside..
Phiew...
My mum's car is having problem and going to the workshop tmr~
So they are using my car tmr~
Can't go anywhere without my car, luckily dint plan to go out tmr~
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
01/09/2010
The first day for second sem
Feels good to meet with my frens and having lunch with them..
Actually my timetable is not very very nice..
But den, compare with my frens' one, it's reli much more better d..
No long long breaks or 3,4 classes back to back..
Thursday having class from 8-5..The longest day tat i had to stay in coll..
But still it's better den my fren, becox at least i have 2 short breaks..and one is at 12.30-2.00 lunch break..
My fren's break is 9.30-11.00 den she will have classes back to back until 5pm!!
OMG~when i saw her timetable i was like, wat the hell??
So, i reli should appreciate having this nice timetable~
Thank you~^^
Feels good to meet with my frens and having lunch with them..
Actually my timetable is not very very nice..
But den, compare with my frens' one, it's reli much more better d..
No long long breaks or 3,4 classes back to back..
Thursday having class from 8-5..The longest day tat i had to stay in coll..
But still it's better den my fren, becox at least i have 2 short breaks..and one is at 12.30-2.00 lunch break..
My fren's break is 9.30-11.00 den she will have classes back to back until 5pm!!
OMG~when i saw her timetable i was like, wat the hell??
So, i reli should appreciate having this nice timetable~
Thank you~^^
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