心情天地

12/2/2012

2012-02-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

前几个星期跟lishi, jiesheng, shinglin 他们聊天时，
他们一直说我缺乏爱，desperate for guys~
当时我也想可能真的想要一个男友在身边~
但这几天突然发觉，
也许我真的想要有一个人在我身边，
但是我想我对感情的事已经变得望而却步了~
更何况我是一个怕改变的人~
当然，如果真的交了男友，在需要的时候我还是愿意改变~
只是如果能不改变的话不是更好吗？
而且我也习惯了单身的自由~

6/2/2012

2012-02-06T18:58:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of CNY~
It's a happy and sad CNY this year~
The sad part is that, i fall sick for around 5-6 days~
I cant even go with meiying they all to visit the small little guy for our assignment, and i missed a gathering dinner with shinglin they all, and also missed the yum cha session for s7 punya~
Things that i can do when i was sick is just sleep sleep sleep and sleep~
When i get better a bit, den can watch tv but still lying on the sofa, or use my phone to go on fb or twitter~
The happy part is, this year is the first year i went for visiting with s7 punya frens~
Last 2 years punya CNY i dint follow them for the visiting~
It's good to see them once a while although not all of the classmates are there~Especially Jenn~I missed her alot~
And of course, the visiting with band punya fren is more fun~we went to yy's house, sl's house, ks's house, my house and sw's house~

sorry~

2012-01-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

即时过了这么久~
即时也许你完全不再在乎~
但我依然觉得我欠你一句“对不起”~
也依然没办法说出口~

First 19th bday gift

2011-08-14T21:51:00.001+08:00

I received an early bday gift~
My very first bday gift this year~
It's my first COACH bag!!!OMG~I cant believe this man~
It's from my kai ye~I know he bought a branded bag for me for my bday but i dint know it's COACH until just now~
Reli is omg~XD
THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU!XD

嘉嘉~

2011-06-29T11:48:00.000+08:00

这几天帮忙照顾老师的小孩~
真得好累哦~
他，一点都不像是只有两岁的小孩~
很聪明，也很皮~
最最重要的是，他精力无限~
照顾他时，你真的什么别的事都不能做~
他很可爱，也很爱笑~
不过照顾他真的是很累~=(

他让我开始担心如果以后我小孩也这样的话~~~~~
LOL~好像有点想太远了hor~~
不过，还真的有点担心~

=(

2011-06-21T00:41:00.000+08:00

爷爷和奶奶星期日吵架~
到现在都还没和好~唉~
何必为了一个不重要的人而伤了和气呢？
只会让亲者痛，仇者快~
希望他们快快和好吧~
都七老八十了才来大吵架~

Coffee~=p

2011-06-12T12:49:00.000+08:00

It makes me feel like going for a cup of coffee~

LOL~=p

Anyway,

coffee doesn't reli bring me too much side effect nowdays~=)

Although I still can't go to sleep right away after finish taking a cup of coffee~=p

大嘴巴变小嘴巴~

2011-06-12T12:13:00.000+08:00

姑姑说，

我拿掉牙套后，

嘴巴马上变小了~@.@

这个其实是我嘴巴original的size咧~=p

11062011

2011-06-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

Today is my grandpa's company's annual dinner~
Since it's an annual dinner, of course need wear nice nice punya dress~
Wearing nice nice punya dress of course need nice nice punya high heels right?

But seriously, i dun reli know how to walk with high heels~
I feel that the purpose of the creation of high heels is to torture female's leg~=p
And most importantly, i injured my knee few years ago but till now it's still not reli fully recovered yet~
Wearing high heels for a long period will make me 旧患复发~@.@
So, i dun reli like high heels~=p

110611

2011-06-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday evening 5pm, Ameline called~

She told me boon, danny, rong bin and her are in klang~

Wanna ask me to bring them to eat seafood~

You know la, saya roadblind wei~

Luckily I got a fren who is reli a nice guy, who willing to fetch me from my house to bring them to the nice seafood restaurant den send me back again~=)

05062011

2011-06-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

Sick le~>_<
距离上次打败仗已经半年了~
没想到这次去完旅行之后两天就病倒了~
可怜的我还要赶assignment~
头脑生锈一直生产不出好的idea~
第四天了，还是恢复不了体力~
stamina真的又差了~haiz~
也对啦，刚旅行回来不久还没休息足够就病倒了，体力没那么快恢复也是正常的~
希望快快好啦~好累哦~辛苦~@.@

27052011

2011-05-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

没想到他知道我在想什么~
也没想到他知道我的感受~
一直想证实的事情，透过他，我找到了答案~
还是没办法心如止水，但也证明我是热血的~=p

24/5/2011

2011-05-24T16:55:00.002+08:00

我真的是不知怎么了~
拿了驾照一年多，只hai过一次车~
怎么知道~这个星期里面就又中两次~
我真的是疯了啦~

11/05/2011

2011-05-11T20:26:00.002+08:00

今天在facebook上看到的一篇文章~
这一段话我很想post但避免引起不愉快或什么~
所以选择写在这里~

"即使两个人再见面了，再相遇了。
也没有可能再爱你一次。
因为你已经不是那个让我念念不忘的你。
从我说服自己鼓起勇气开始新生活的时候。
你就已经什么都不是了。"

那是我们都回不去的从前~
没有遗憾是假的~没有忧伤也是假的~
但爱的是以前的我们~
想的是以前的回忆~
而我过的是现在的生活~

04052011

2011-05-04T21:55:00.002+08:00

其实，再想起你，再见到你时，
已经没有当初那种心痛或心动的感觉了~
不可否认，有时候还是会有一丝丝的伤感和遗憾，但是心痛的感觉却非常的模糊不清了~
甚至回想起以前在一起时的时光，已经不像以前那样鲜明了~
不会一想起就感觉到甜蜜还有伤痛了~

也许身边的朋友会觉得我还是时不时地提起你，觉得我还不能放下~
但其实，我觉得只是习惯~
差不多整整一年的时间我们都一起上课，一起回家，一起旅行~
即使还没在一起前，我们很多事情都一起完成~
我们彼此变成了彼此生活里的一部分，这是我们都无法改变的~
其实，如果我还放不下，现在我们这种关系，这种相处模式才是最痛苦的~
所幸的是，有很多人事物帮助我走出来~
我真的很感谢我的朋友们，在我最需要帮忙时在我身边陪伴着我~谢谢你们~我爱你们~=）

03052011

2011-05-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

Finally the results is out~woohoohoo~
Get HD for my stats, D for my business, and PS for my psycho~@.@
Planned to wake up at 830 in the morning to check out my results but in the end i still overslept and woke up at 1130~=p
The first thing tat i did when i woke up is to on my phone and my laptop~
and open mypride and fb at the same time~LOL

Quite satisfied with my HD and D~already gave up to get HD for stats actually~
thought tat it's already gone after i get back my continuous assessment's marks~
Was kinda shocked when i saw the HD there~
And im glad tat i reli get D for my business as wat i wish for~
I thought the D would be gone when the moment i step out of the classroom after the finals cox i reli hav no idea wat im writing abt~
I already prepared to get a credit or pass for it~
Luckily things went smooth~thx god~=)

But quite unsatisfied with my psycho's results~
I know i should appreciate tat i get quite good results for my other 2 subjects~
But i just cant reli get too high whenever i think abt my psycho's results~
Although i know it's already kinda hard for me to aim for credit for it d~
I know no hope to get distinction also~
But i still hope for it~
I want to take psychology for my degree~
But the 2 subjects tat are most related to the degree course are the 2 subjects tat i get the lowest marks~
Subjects that i get Credit, Distinction or even High Distinction are not reli the subjects that reli have related to the degree course~
I am wondering, am i reli suitable to go for psychology in degree??
Anyway, since i already make up my mind, the only thing i can do is to study hard and do my best~=)

17042011

2011-04-17T20:09:00.003+08:00

其实偶尔还是会想起你~
想起你的时候，我依然会觉得心痛，难过，甚至有时会流眼泪，会哭~
但我知道，时间正在一点一滴的把一切冲淡~
而且，那已经是我们都回不去的过去了~
我在期待，期待着再次想起你时心不会再痛，期待着再次见到你时不再有一丝丝的难过~
我期待着那一天的到来~

07042011

2011-04-07T22:09:00.002+08:00

我以为一切已经慢慢的淡去~
但原来事实并不是如此~
以为我够乐观~以为我可以可很潇洒~
但原来我是那么地舍不得~
我的心依然那么地痛~

300311

2011-03-30T14:11:00.001+08:00

Reli is wth~
Wait you for 2 and a half hours for ntg?!
Just for you to play computer games?!
I reli feel like scolding bad words in front of you man!!
YOU ARE WASTING MY TIME!!!

30/03/2011

2011-03-30T14:01:00.002+08:00

脸皮真的是有够厚的~
因为double park 而被人打爆镜还敢讲话那么大声~
你是没拉handbreak啦，但也应该留下你的电话号码啊~
拜托，如果被你当到的车的车主像我又瘦又小只又没力，很可能推不动你车好吗？
如果那人的脾气很暴躁，又或是有急事，会不气到爆才怪~
你会说就不管你有没有错那个人都不该打爆你车镜~对，他不该打爆你的镜，但你也不该double park别人的车啊~
如果别人说那句话，我无话可说，可是拜托，使你double park别人的车eh~
被打爆镜是会很火，会生气，会投诉，但你竟然还有脸把它拍下来post上facebook??
真的是对你很佩服~

P.S. 纯粹个人意见外加发泄~

25032011

2011-03-25T01:07:00.002+08:00

我知道很夜了~但我睡不着~
躺了整整一个钟头还是睡不着~
在这种夜深人静，失眠的夜晚，我又想起不该想的东西了~
不知不觉,眼泪又不停的掉下来了~
明明说不再在乎了~
但是，他的一句话，他说话的语气，他的笑容，还是一样能够牵动我的心~
我知道时间可以把一切冲淡~现在是过渡期~
白天，我还可以控制自己的情绪~
虽然脾气暴躁了点，但一切都还正常~
但到了晚上，却很容易陷入自己的情绪里，不可自拔~
就像现在这样~
最糟糕的是，想睡却睡不着~
突然好想你~
过去的一幕幕又再次浮现在我脑海里~

有时候，说真的我也不知道我到底是疯了还是怎样，我到底是怎么做到分手后还能这样天天面对着你，甚至一起做assignment？
我真的是疯了我~
是坚强吗？我想，更大的可能性是我太好强了~一点都不想在你面前认输，示弱~

23/3/2011

2011-03-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

在那一刻我真的呆掉了~
那一刻，涌上来的情绪太多了~我只知道那一刻我真的很难受~
如果，那是真的，我只能说，我看错你了~
如果，那是你逼我死心的方法，我只能说，恭喜你，你成功了~
但你永远不会明白我在那一刻的心情~
你永远不会懂那一刻我的心有多痛~
真的感受到了想哭但是却哭不出来~
我想，我原谅不了你~
也许我真的放下时，这一切会变得不再重要，但此时此刻，我真的不可能原谅得了你~
或许，对你来说，我原谅不原谅对你来说一点都不重要吧？

17032011

2011-03-17T00:11:00.001+08:00

Listening to love song also no rasa??
It's so impossible man~
I thought tears will fall or heart will pain~
But wat i expected dint come le~
How come le??

15/03/2011

2011-03-16T01:43:00.002+08:00

在那一刻，我觉得我的世界倒塌了~
心真的很痛~
这个星期以来他的反应一直都很不妥~
但我只能一次又一次告诉自己是我自己想太多~
我只能劝自己这只是过渡期，过完这星期再不行才找时间慢慢谈~
不是没想过结局是这样，但一切发生得那么快，那么的措手不及~
看着那只戒指，还没反应过来眼泪就已经夺眶而出~
一次又一次地当我以为泪已流干时，却一次次地掉下来~

但我很庆幸我身边有那么多朋友们关心我，陪着我~
谢谢你们~
因为你们我才能那么快站起来面对~

我知道他并没有意要伤害我~
我知道也许他需要的是时间~
但此刻的我还不能完完全全原谅他~
拜托，真的很痛eh~

Im just a normal gal~
I wanted to be a supergal but i cant~
Facing him using the position of a normal fren and do my work properly already is my limit~
I can help as a fren in studies and assignments but other than tat~
Sorry, i reli cant help d~
I cant help you walk out of it~

15/02/2011

2011-02-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

今年的情人节就这样过了~~
那未来的几十年情人节该怎么过呢？
现在我真的是矛盾到了极点~~
reli is OMG~~
>_<..

13/02/2011

2011-02-13T20:56:00.004+08:00

Hohoho~
Congratulations to TALTAL N THOMAS!!!!
It's damn happy to see you 2 finally together man~~XD
We waited for so long d~~hahaha...
The scene of you 2 依偎 together looks damn perfect wei~~
祝你们长长久久 & 恩恩爱爱 o~~=)

25/01/2011

2011-01-25T21:09:00.003+08:00

和你度过下半生的，
也许不是你一生中最爱的人，
也许不是你一生中最爱你的人，
但绝对是在对的时候出现的对的人~

最近听了朋友的故事，突然有一点感触~
朋友，如果你被他/她拒绝了，
也许，你并不是那个对的人~
当然，你可以争辩说哪来的证据证明你不会是那个对的人~
好吧，就当做你是那个对的人~
但试问你是否出现在对的地方，对的时间点？
如果不是的话，那请不要执着~
你可以尝试努力争取，但如果结局是失败的话，请不要怪罪于自己，他/她更或者是其他的人~
这只能说是上天的安排，你和他/她注定有缘无份，而你也不是他/她的MR/MRS RIGHT~

140111

2011-01-14T13:48:00.002+08:00

不知为何，见不到你时，让我觉得很不安~
以前我并不会这样没安全感~
有时，我会问自己，你变了吗？
但细想，也没什么多大的改变~
有一些改变是正常的，完全没改变才是奇怪吧？
只是，当你不在我身边时，我完全感觉不到你的关心，你对我的紧张~
当你在我面前，我才能感觉到你对我的关怀和体贴~
是否真的是我太敏感了呢？？

120111

2011-01-12T20:23:00.002+08:00

It's weird to get a msg :"You find me got anything?" from your own bf~
It just sounds too formal even if the msg is to send to a fren, a good fren~

Not complaining~
Just feels weird abt it~=p

110111

2011-01-11T18:30:00.002+08:00

This is my first post of 2011~
Long time i dint post anything in my blog d~=p
In this one month++, reli alot of things happened~
I dunno how to express and describe it through words~
But i'll try to tell in a simple way~=)
First of all, I went to penang trip with my dear college frens~
Which is an awesome trip again after the melaka trip~XD
Except the accident that happened when we're on the way home~
Secondly, my car had to get into the workshop becox of the accident~
And until now my car haven get home yet~=(
I miss it alot~>_<
Thirdly, there something that i dunno is it a problem..
It might reli is a problem, or maybe i think too much or im too sensitive..
I dunno the answer, and i guess only time can show us the correct answer~
But wat im very sure is, I need to learn to be more patient~=p
Other than these 3 things, there are still alot of minor minor small incident that happened throughout this one month++, but im gonna keep it to myself~=p

30/11/2010

2010-11-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

Gosh, i just dunno why i cant stop myself from being mang zang~>_<
I know it's not his fault..
He just wanna stay at home to study~STUDY~not play, not lazy, not anything else but to study~
I know he dun reli like the idea of letting me going to coll myself..
I know im the one who wanted to go coll even when he says tat he's not going..
But i just feel damn pek for going to coll myself tmr, with the injured shoulder and knee..

ARGH~
i know i shouldnt be angry, i know i shouldnt be mang zang, i know i shouldnt get mad at him..
but i just cant control it~>_<
PEK AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Dislike driving to coll myself, dislike going for class myself, dislike driving home from coll myself,
and i HATE exams!!!!!!
Trying not to let myself too stress~but I AM STRESS~~~~~~~~>_<~~~

27102010

2010-10-27T13:44:00.001+08:00

A friend said that now i'm like keep torturing myself everday..
It's kinda true, everyday dunno why keep on stress myself, giving myself pressure,
force myself to work for assignments and presentations even if they are group assignments,
work until late at night, till i cant stand it,
but when i stop working, off the lights, and get onto the bed,
im not sleeping, my whole mind is just you~

20102010

2010-10-20T14:06:00.002+08:00

痛~心真的在痛。。。
累~爱得好累。。

当你无法忍受我不能时时刻刻在你身边时，
你认为我会很好受吗？
你觉得我就不需要你在我身边陪着我吗？
从认识的第一天，距离这个问题就已经存在了，
你现在才说你受不了了？
你知不知道当你无法忍受我不在你身边而对我冷淡时，
造成的伤害比距离这个问题的伤害更大，更伤，更痛？
如果你决心离开，为什么不就这样转身离开？为什么还要回头？
你说你想要确确实实感觉我们之间的爱，
你需要我陪在你身边。。
先生，难道不回复我信息还是回我那种该死的信息能改变什么吗？
我对你的关心，对你的爱，难道你真的一点都感觉不到吗？
你感觉不到，那我呢？
我就该死的应该明白，应该感觉到爱吗？
我不对你发脾气，不代表我没脾气好吗？！

09/10/2010

2010-10-09T17:39:00.003+08:00

Cant stand without me by yourside?
It's a problem tat we cant get any closer?
The moment you say you wont find me again i decided not to sms you anymore..
I was down but im staying strong...
I can still persuade myself tat we cant meet each other is just and excuse, the truth is you dun love me anymore..
But why?
Just a sms :"Sayang, I love you"
For wat send me this kind of msg since you decided not to find me?
My tears almost going to burst out..
But wat i can do is just swallow the tears, wearing the smiling face in front of my frens, and once again tolerating and finding solutions..
I reli dunno for wat i tolerate again..
Reli is for wat?
If you do care, will you wan me to tolerate like this?
I reli dunno..I dun have the answer for the quesiton..

08/10/2010

2010-10-08T20:06:00.002+08:00

I reli have had enough~
Im done with it..
I will NOT sms you until you sms me again, even if it means to lose you..
I can tolerate once, i can tolerate twice, i can tolerate many times but NOT FOREVER..
I also got my own 个性and脾气 OK?!
I am keep worrying and now WORRY has become ANGER!!

oh.ok.nitez.en..
Wat kind of stupid reply is this?!
1st msg, 忍~
2nd msg, 忍~
3rd msg, 忍~
4th, 5th, 6th, 7th............
WTF~
who you think you are?!
Yes, im in love with you, so wat?!
If having a relationship with you is this kind of pattern, and im the only one tolerating, i rather i dun wan it anymore..
Even if it hurts so badly for losing you, i also rather break than getting more and more emo and frustrated by not getting reply or this kind of STUPID reply from you becox it HURTS more than breaking up with you!!
Getting along with someone who doesnt love me or even care abt me, it's even worst than breaking up!!

07/10/2010

2010-10-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

I miss you, but i cant say it out loud,
I love you, but i cant say it out loud,
even now im worry abt you, i still cant say it out loud..
The only thing i can do is just wear my mask and pretend ntg happened..

我真的觉得很没安全感...
以前的我从来不会这样子的...
为什么从我们相遇，相识，到现在所谓的“相爱”的情侣关系，
一切的主导权都在你？
我真的好想问，你真的爱我吗？
如果爱，你现在这样是算什么？
你真的只是忧郁所以想一个人独处，还是你不要这段关系了？
我曾经承诺过，我会留在你身边，我不会离开你除非你叫我离开~
如果你真的想我离开你的世界，只要你一句话我就会离开~
我不想你现在这样子，不回我信息，一句话都不说丢我一个人在这里担心，
却不知道你在想什么，你要什么...
如果你在忧郁,你不开心,我可以陪着你..
就算你说你想要一个人冷静,叫我暂时不要找你,给你空间,我也OK..
但现在这样是怎样?!
我只有不停叫自己冷静,不停告诉自己你只是emo,需要一点时间和空间...
但拜托你,不要这样折磨我好吗?
我撑着这张笑脸撑得很辛苦...
我应该坚强,可是我很累了，好想放弃~
却又担心当你回头找我时你会找不到，会难过，会觉得受伤~
快快告诉我你想怎样吧~求求你在我崩溃前告诉我你到底想怎样~

06.10.2010

2010-10-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

这种要求，你要我怎样点头答应你？

06/10/2010

2010-10-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

很累~我真的不想再戴着面具对人~
我不想担心时却撑着笑脸对人开玩笑，
我不想没有不安全感，却当什么事都没有，
我不想明明在意，却要装着一点也不在乎~

到底什么时候开始，我又再次戴上那伪装的面具？
到底什么时候我可以把它拿下来？

什么时候开始，
我不再有自信？
什么时候开始，
我变得那么没安全感？
什么时候开始，
我那么需要温柔体贴和关怀？

想为你分担，
想让你没负担，
想让你不担心，
但，我真的撑得很辛苦~
你懂吗？
我不想抱怨，但我真的很想你给我多一点点安全感~
就那么一点点就好，可以吗？

03/10/2010

2010-10-03T15:00:00.002+08:00

我想问，我们算什么?
情侣？
没有告白，没有追求，就直接从友情变爱情的情侣？
一对在朋友面前当什么事都没有的情侣？
一对明明在同一间学院却连碰一面都难的情侣？
一对几乎不了解对方的情侣？
一对在别人眼中根本不是情侣的情侣？
这种关系真的令我觉得很没安全感~
有时我会问自己，这真的是我要的吗？

毕竟是我先喜欢上你的，所以很多时候我都觉得不应该有怨言...
但是我们都已经是情侣了，为什么却好像疏离了?
我明白我们不能也不应该公开我们的关系，
毕竟这是一件很敏感的事，而且很可能伤害到我们不想伤害的人~
几乎所有人面前，我们都只能当做什么事都没有，
不要说牵手，就连眼神都时常避免接触~
谈天时，我们和身边的朋友说的话都比和对方说的来得多~

是我敏感了吗？
我觉得你有点变了~
是因为变成情侣所以我心里要求的更多了，还是你真的变冷淡了呢？

说真的，有时我心满痛的~
你曾经为了她，戒烟、戒酒、戒clubbing，
但现在每一样都回来了~
那我算什么？
她不喜欢你吸烟，喝酒，clubbing，夜归，
你以为我会喜欢吗？
我没彻底阻止你，但你真的听不出我叫你少吸烟的意思吗？
昨天你call我，结果却是找她，
你真的认为我那么厉害什么都不介意吗？
我知道你和她没什么，
但我不是神，我不能做到什么感觉都没有~
有时我真的觉得我爱得好累~

有时真的会想，为什么我爱上的是你？
可是，爱上了就爱上了，
我能做的就是尽力做到最好~

15/09/2010

2010-09-15T16:58:00.002+08:00

该放弃的，却放不了手~
该把握的，却不能握紧~

你说不会让任何人伤害我，但是其实在伤害我的是你~
明知道是个陷阱，我却还是陷了下去~
不想伤害任何人，却伤害了很多人，包括自己~

14/09/2010

2010-09-14T23:25:00.002+08:00

谁来还我那曾经平静的生活？
我不想去爱也不想被爱~
我只要我的家人、学业和朋友~
我讨厌现在的我，那么的不干不脆~
我宁愿我只能暗恋与祝福~
也不想像现在这样充满罪恶感~
我讨厌这种进退两难的感觉~
而且，一切似乎都不由得我决定似的~
我恨透了这种想解决问题却解决不了的无力和无奈感~
为什么问题总要堆在一起？？
什么时候这一切才能结束？？？
我要以前的生活！！！！

18th B'day~

2010-09-07T20:47:00.003+08:00

Today is my bday~
Im officially 18 now~^^
Many frens are saying tat i "dai gor lui" jor~
LOL~i know i doesnt act like a 18 years old gal la~
Dun need to remind me tat=p
Was waiting someone's wishes since 12am..
But den i fall asleep abt 12.45~haha~=p
I feel very happy tat i sees tat msg when i wake up~XD

Dunno why feels so tired today~>_<
I was so energetic the whole day since morning until i starting to drive home~
Feels so tired~
Wanted to go onto the bed right after i step into the room..
But cant tahan myself being so dirty~@.@
So unlucky tat, after i finish taking bath, it's already dinner time which means X time for nap~T.T
I know my frens will be saying, just go to bed after dinner la~LOL
But it's reli too early for sleep wei~i will wake up in the midnight if i sleep now~

Anyway,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to myself~^^

05/09/2010

2010-09-05T23:38:00.004+08:00

I know i shouldn't angry..
I know i dun need to get angry either..
But, i just got angry..

Hello mr., im your fren, not your maid..
Am i suppose to know your timetable and help you to type it out??
I know many ppl might say tat i should just leave him alone, and nothing to angry at..
But i just cant tahan tat he this dun care tat dun care!!
Wat the hell his brain is??
I dun even know his grouping how am i going to know his timetable??
He dunn even know his own timetable and he asked me to help him to type and print it out?!
Can he be abit responsible??
Just go online and sign in and copy down the timetable is tat so hard??
I dun mind if he copied down the timetable and asked me to help him to put it into computer and help him print..
Im not angry tat he asking me to help..
Im angry tat he is so irresponsible tat just throw everything to other ppl to help him settle..

And hello~
The first sms you ask me, tmr v got english class or not?
I answered you say no, lecturer still on leave so no class..
Den you say xxx say tat he canceled his leave..
Hello~cant you just tell me, someone said tat his leave canceled d, so are we having english class tmr??
how i know someone told you tat he canceled his leave??
Im not god ok??
Why dun you go check those website which usually post announcement??
Why dun you ask them how they know tat he canceled his leave??
At least if they say they saw it on the notice board or website or facebook, we can go confirm..
You are now telling me tat xxx told you tat xxx's fren tell xxx tat the lecturer canceled his leave and you dint even ask how he know it??
I know it's reli ntg for me to angry abt..
But i reli dunno why i almost got mad at you..
It just make me feels so uncomfortable..
You are asking me a question and you dun believe my answer..
Wat for you asking it??
You got so many other ways to confirm abt it..
And you use this kind of way which wont give you an accurate answer..

02/09/2010

2010-09-02T20:01:00.002+08:00

OMG~
Damn tired..my sleeping time still cant totally change back yet..>_<
The alarm was ringing for about an hour this morning i only realize tat i should wake up@.@
After brush up and my breakfast,
den go fetch hou kaen go coll..
Today i had classes from 8-5...
Although my classes are not all back to back,
But it's so tiring~>_<
I reli dunno how my frens manage to study by having 3/4/5 classes back to back~
I thought tat malaysian studies would be boring,
but end up quite fun becox of my frens..
Lolz..reli is non-stop laughing in the class for tat 2 and a half hours..
Luckily im in the same class with them, if not i think i will fall asleep after half an hour in the class..
So lucky tat we finish the class half an hour earlier (4.30pm)..
If the class finish at 5pm, it will be damn jam outside..
Phiew...

My mum's car is having problem and going to the workshop tmr~
So they are using my car tmr~
Can't go anywhere without my car, luckily dint plan to go out tmr~

01/09/2010

2010-09-01T16:40:00.003+08:00

The first day for second sem
Feels good to meet with my frens and having lunch with them..
Actually my timetable is not very very nice..
But den, compare with my frens' one, it's reli much more better d..
No long long breaks or 3,4 classes back to back..
Thursday having class from 8-5..The longest day tat i had to stay in coll..
But still it's better den my fren, becox at least i have 2 short breaks..and one is at 12.30-2.00 lunch break..
My fren's break is 9.30-11.00 den she will have classes back to back until 5pm!!
OMG~when i saw her timetable i was like, wat the hell??
So, i reli should appreciate having this nice timetable~
Thank you~^^

31/08/2010

2010-08-31T20:53:00.002+08:00

828那天他们都好可爱哦~
竟然那么多人以为我和皓群在一起~LOL
超不可置信的咧~
我和他一进门口他们就在那里wow wow的叫~
最好笑的是，皓群叫我然后递鸡翼给我时，
本来吵得像菜市场那样的他们，
竟然全部静下来看着皓群~
当时的他们的表情超好笑的~
如果不是当时的场面令我觉得蛮尴尬的我想我一定会笑得很大声~LOL

不过也难怪他们那么错愕啦~
毕竟以前的我和皓群根本连谈天说上一两句都没有~
现在却是熟到坐他车去Gathering，
要拿东西时，有时懒惰就找他~
他懒惰拿钱包我就先帮他一起付再跟他收钱~
最近混得很熟的我们，一点都不觉得怎么样~
在他们眼中，我们的互动却奇怪得很~
想起来都觉得好笑~
拜托，我和他真的什么都没有好吗？？

还有，今天国庆日一点都不像国庆日~
一点气氛都没有~
通常国庆日都没下雨的,
今天却破天荒下雨~
还真希奇呢~

29/8.2010

2010-08-29T16:11:00.002+08:00

没想到再次看到他和她的画面，
还是会让我那么不自在~
心里依然会冒出酸酸的泡泡~
我装作不在乎，就会不在乎了吗？

昨晚有朋友向我哭诉~
他说他觉得很伤，很痛~
他说的一字一句，都说到我心底~
听着他哭，听着他的痛，
我的泪也流出来了~
我很明白他的痛苦，
那种想忘却忘不了，想放手却放不掉，每一个寂寞的夜晚只有眼泪陪着入睡的痛苦~

这一切的一切，把我尘封的回忆都唤醒~
那一幕幕甜蜜还有痛苦的画面不断缠绕着我~
除了痛苦，还是痛苦~
即时多么甜蜜的回忆，在此可都是心痛的~

晚上，你又再次回到我梦里，
那个梦是多么地真实~
你的声音是那么的温柔，拥抱是那么的温暖，动作是那么的轻柔~

我以为我对你，不会再有任何感觉~
我以为你不会再对我产生影响~
但原来，我没办法，真的真的把你忘掉，
没办法永永远远把你忘掉~

无论如何，谢谢你曾经对我的好，
我很高兴你现在很幸福快乐~
只是遗憾，能给你幸福与快乐，陪在你身边的的，不是我~
祝你永远那么幸福~

22/08/2010

2010-08-22T16:24:00.002+08:00

Going to get our results on Thursday~>_<
Pass is not a big problem~
But~~~~~~
I reli hope i can get the results tat i aimed for..
1HD 2D 1C~~
Gan jiong~~

失眠之夜~

2010-08-19T01:01:00.001+08:00

在这下雨的夜晚，
我失眠了~
听着窗外那滴滴答答的雨声，
在那片黑暗里，
想念着不会想念我的你~
好想告诉你，
我想念你~

18/08/2010

2010-08-18T22:29:00.002+08:00

我没想到，我会那么快就陷了下去~
真的很想问，为什么要让我现在才遇见你？
真的有一种相见恨晚的感觉~
有时我会问，为什么让你先遇见他？
但偏偏，却是因为他我们才会相遇~
这证明了我们是有缘无份是吗？
那晚，明明累了，明明第二天要早起还要驾车，
却依然接你的电话~
明明知道你是因为他，睡不着才打来，却还是陪你到天亮~
那一刻，我清楚知道虽然知道我很清楚你有多爱他，而我也已经那么努力的克制自己，可是却还是深深地陷了下去~
你知道吗？我好想你~
虽然我天天酸你，天天开你和他的玩笑，
可是，天知道每当你说出对他的爱意、你对他的昵称时，我心有多酸~
怪只能怪，我们在那样的时候相遇，
而我也爱上一个我不该爱的人~

18/8/2010

2010-08-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

最近，觉得自己蛮自闭的~
天天闷在家里，
不是电视就是看书，不是看书就是上网，不是上网就是睡觉~
每天上线，但MSN也没真的找人聊天~聊天也只是说废话~
明明有事，明明想诉苦却不告诉任何人~
曾几何时我变得如此封闭？
以前，我的秘密从来就不是我一个人的~
最起码我也会告诉一两个朋友，
但现在，我却连提都不提~
装没事，没烦恼，没问题~

30/7/2010

2010-07-30T13:54:00.002+08:00

也许，
真的如她所说的，
那些照片和文章勾起了那些回忆，
而并不是我真的放不下~
也许，
因为白天那些回忆被勾起来了，
晚上才会发那样的梦吧~是所谓的日有所思夜有所梦吧？
说真的，
现在冷静下来，才发现那一切不再像以前一样让我那么心痛难过了~
深刻的，不是感情，仅仅只是那段成为过去的回忆~
昨天，令我那么惊慌失措的，只是那份不可置信吧？
只是没办法相信那些过去仍带着某种影响力~
很庆幸虽然它依然带着影响力但是却没有把我困在过去~^^

29/7/2010 2

2010-07-29T16:20:00.000+08:00

你知道吗？
昨晚我梦见你了~
当我起床后，我多么希望那不是一场梦~
甚至在想，如果我永远都在梦里不要醒来，那该有多好~
当我清醒，恢复理智后，我真的没办法相信我竟然会有那些荒唐到极点的想法~
到底发生了什么事？
为什么我突然对你那么的眷恋？
为什么近来，你的声音，你的身影，都在我脑海里挥散不去？
甚至梦里的你，是那么的真实~
你的温柔，你的体贴，你的笑容，你的声音，你的温暖。。。。
一切的一切，那么的真实，那么的深刻~
为什么？为什么我摆脱不了过去？
明明我已经那么的努力往前进，为什么那些过去还要不断地纠缠着我？？

29/7/2010

2010-07-29T14:07:00.000+08:00

我没办法相信，
在那一刻，
我以为早已干枯的眼泪，竟然会再次夺眶而出。。
我以为那段过去早已成为被深深埋藏并且淡忘的记忆，没想到它还是如此深刻且触动我的心。。
是否这几个月来不再想起那段过去只是因为我将所有体力与精神都集中在学业上？？
是否是因为这样，他们才会觉得我真的那么勤力，那么认真，那么注重学业？？
我无法找出答案。。
我回答不了这问题。。

25/6/2010

2010-06-25T19:31:00.000+08:00

好久没写blog了~
说实在的，我也不知道要写些什么好~
比起以前，现在我的生活是那么的平淡，那么的轻松~
现在除了学业，根本没什么东西好烦的。。
有时我会怀念以前那些忙碌疯狂的日子~
那种学业和乐队两头烧的日子，真的是回想起来都觉得疯狂~
我真的无法想像我到底怎么度过那疯狂无比的五年~
但也因为那些疯狂的日子，我的中学生涯里充满了很多很多非常精彩，难忘的回忆~
也因为那些疯狂与忙碌，所以我很满意我现在的生活，平淡可是却很轻松充实愉快~

27/05/2010

2010-05-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i finally get my computing quiz's result...
Better den wat i expected~quite happy about it..
Hope i can do better in my midterm~
Dunno why feels so tired these few days..
Sleep early also no use..
Looks like a panda..
Why ah??
I totally dint burn midnight oil but still looks like a panda..
Can anyone tell me why??

Next week going to have presentation..
But we haven reli prepared our microsoft words and excel for the presentation..
Hope that we can finish it on time with good quality of work..
After presentation is midterm..
Feels that time reli flies~

We're going to wear formal for our presentation..
So, i will be going to bring my camera to college for that whole week and take down pic for my frens..
I guess it will be a special and precious memory for us..

15/5/2010

2010-05-15T12:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i had a quiz for computing principles..
I think i sot d..
On wed night, i study till 3..
And on thursday night, means the night before the quiz, again i study till 3am.
I only sleep for 2 hours den wake up and go to college..
Quite a number of frens feel tat i reli crazy..It's just a quiz which only contains 5% for this subject, and i take it so seriously, study like crazy..
Actually i also dunno why am i doing this like torturing myself..
Anyway, that's one of my problem..i always take things too seriously even though it is so unnecessary..
It's so lucky that although i only sleep 4 hours on wed and only 2 hours for thurs, i still looks perfectly ok..
But sorry my frens, if i sounds weird or rude or wat..cox my brain seriously not functioning..Most of the time i dun even no wat am i talking abt..
Especially to Kaen~I was fetching him to college and i almost langgar kereta becox of my slow responds..
Paiseh~

24/04/2010

2010-04-24T18:20:00.000+08:00

Today went for hair cut..
Wanna change hairstyle but dun wanna cut short..
So how le??
Hair also still not long enough to make nice curly hair...
So, i cut fringe..
You know wat??
I looks damn weird with the fringe..>.<
Somemore looks damn childish with that hairstlye..
OMG~
suan liao la..cant change anything..and luckily it's not too ugly..

23/04/2010

2010-04-23T12:19:00.000+08:00

Hello~
Pls stop putting me on fire!!!
Tat day my class is at 9.30am and you said daddy tell you tat is 10.00 come my house fetch me..
You keep say is daddy told you the wrong time..
But i know that's impossible ok?!
Cox my dad had double reconfirmed with me right before he call you ok?!!
When me and mummy tell you it's impossible that daddy tell you the wrong info, you only admit maybe you heard wrongly..
Suan liao..
But, when i call to tell you my class is over you say no one tells you that you need to fetch me home???!!
WTF!!
I'm not angry that no one tells you abt it..
Cox i know my dad had TOLD you abt it in the morning..
You think i am stupid izit?
You say daddy just tell you that dun need come change car but dint tell you need fetch me..
Wat la..When my dad call you i am beside him ok?!
I can even say out the exact sentence, exact words that he told you ok??!
He say dun need come change car in the morning, 11am only change car come fetch me..
You forget to fetch me den you use this stupid excuse??
I am not angry becox i cant go home straight away after class..
I am angry becox you are finding EXCUSES..
Somemore you said is my dad's fault that he dint tell you..
Hello~If now i'm not at college but is waiting you at roadside or some where else le??
It's not tat you can reach in 10 minutes, it's one hour ok??
Kena kidnapped or wat den how??
Dun tell me impossible so easy kena kidnapped or wat..
Everthing is possible..
Please la..change your stupid attitude..
Be responsible..
NO MORE EXCUSES!!
AT LEAST ADMIT IT WHEN YOU RELI DO SOMETHING WRONG!!

想甩也甩不掉的情人前三名星座

2010-04-21T11:15:00.001+08:00

想甩也甩不掉的情人前三名星座

NO.1处女座　　
处女座一旦爱上一个人为对方海枯石烂都愿意，首先他本身

会理性的分析，而且也可以分析出真相来，但是重点是他不肯相信也不愿意面对，只要对方还愿意维持表面功夫，处女座还是可以假装双方还是很恩爱，即使对方跟他讲的一清二楚，甚至让他眼见为凭，处女座恐怕还是愿意等对回心转意。

NO.2巨蟹座　　
巨蟹座的人对于感情有一种患得患失的态度，一旦他感受到对方有要甩掉他的意思，他就很没有安全感，为了要挽回对方的心，他会愿意修正自己，拼命的做尽各种努力，总而言之巨蟹座就是不肯相信对方居然会想要甩掉他，当他到了忍无可忍的地步时才会崩溃。　
　
NO.3水瓶座　　
水瓶座平常对于他不是很肯定的感情或者他无所谓的关系的话，他是抱着一种云淡风清的态度，甚至会很理性的去斩断。可是如果他对一段感情已经投注了情感，或者是他居然处于被甩的劣势，水瓶座的反应是非常不能接受。这时他就会很想要搞清楚而采取一些行动，例如做一些弥补的措施，为了要保住感情，怎幺委屈他都愿意，但是到了非斩断不可的地步他就有可能会做出玉石俱焚的举动。

超黏腻夫妻的前3名星座组合

2010-04-21T11:10:00.000+08:00

超黏腻夫妻的前3名星座组合

NO.1 天蝎老公VS巨蟹老婆　　
天蝎座的老公和巨蟹座的老婆如果幸福的话，他们不介意在

公众场所表现出对另一半的爱慕之意，公然地表现出亲热的动作，因为他们都很希望别人羡慕他们，让人家觉得他们幸福到不行。
　　
NO.2 巨蟹老公VS处女老婆　　
巨蟹座和处女座都是属于没有安全感的类型，巨蟹老公之所以会选择处女座老婆就是因为处女老婆很听话，又以夫为天，对巨蟹老公而言谈恋爱是一回事，结婚又是一回事，绝对不混为一谈，巨蟹男隐性的不安全感很强，会在外面开美眉玩笑也是要证明自己的魅力，而且巨蟹座又很重视另一半，另一半定要很安全，不能有出轨的行为，而处女老婆也会表现自己对另一半的忠贞，于是她就会尽量都跟在巨蟹老公的身边让他安心。
　
NO.3 魔羯老公VS金牛老婆　　
魔羯座的老公和金牛座的老婆都是属于务实经营婚姻的类型，到了外面魔羯男是属于会牵老婆手的男人，必要的时候他是不会冷落老婆的，他用实际行动去证明对方是自己的另一半，金牛座的老婆也是属于这种类型，经由亲密的接触证实对方的存在。

20/04/2010

2010-04-20T12:05:00.000+08:00

Suddenly feels so weird..
Some of my college's classmates starting to call my christian name..
Becox they say it's easier to pronounce and also easier to remember..
My computing principle's lecturer also calling me by my christian name..
Feels so weird le~
This is the second time i'm using my christian name in public...
The first time is when i work in my mum's office..
I feel that my face become hot when someone calls me using my christian name..
Hope i woesnt blushing>.<

I guess i'm going to get use to my college life soon if there isn't any "accident" happens..
(Hope it wont happen)
I feel myself damn childish..
I was asked to write a poem by my intermediate english's lecturer..
Guess wat??
I am using those disney characters such as Peter Pan, Jingle Bell, Cinderella, Mickey mouse for my poem..
Luckily my partner is good in english and help to edit it..
After editing, it finally become nice and smooth and dun sound so childish anymore..
Thx to Su Zanne~^^
Although i'm going to get use to my college life d, but i'm still so excited for my study break next week>v<
So sad that HELP get a lazy student..haha
But i am sure i will work hard during my study break..
Just that will be more online-ing,facebook, msn, pps and youtube nia..haha
Wish the study break come faster^^

16/04/2010

2010-04-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

These few days i was thinking about joining clubs and society..
Yesterday night, actually i reli make my mind to join some curriculum activities..
But then, today makes me feels like "forget abt curriculum activities!!!"
Suddenly feel my life is full of homeworks, assignments and revisions..
Yesterday, our finite maths lecturer asked us to go home to do our tutorials and examples questions..
It's not hard but the questions are damn complicated till make me feel like wanna throw it into the rubbish bin..
Anyway, no matter it's complicated or not i still need to complete it..
But then, this morning i realize something..
My lecturer miss out something in that chapter, and it's something we never learn before..
=.=//
My english lecturer asked us to paired up to write a poem..
Oh great, she's so so so 'nice'.
Writing a poem reli is killing me..
Even is writing it in chinese i also feel so difficult and i can't reli create those beautiful or wonderful nice words..
My english level is like...............
The poem somemore need to rhythm..
Can you just kill me??
Everything seems like coming together..
Other than the maths and poem,
We are having our first assessment for our computing principles..
Seriously, i never interested in IT..
Hope i can complete it successfully..
Traveling so far for classes and having homeworks which are difficult everyday making me damn tired..
I dun think i will have the energy or even time for the curriculum activities..
So, let's forget about it(at least for now)

11-04-2010

2010-04-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

Today my mum is in good mood~
Why??
Becox my dad came back from UK today..
So, she's so excited since yesterday night..
But she was excited but also quite down yesterday night..
It's sounds weird right?
But it's true..Cox she was so excited that my dad is coming back earlier one day than his initially planning..She was down becox my bro went to australia last night for his skating camp..
I think she had a weird and complicated feeling yesterday night..
My mum will easily get panic whenever my dad went overseas..She sometimes become abit annoying..
I think my bro has the same feeling as me ba..haha..
Well, anyway, it's good to have my dad back at home..

DADDY~WELCOME HOME~^^

06/04//2010

2010-04-07T10:14:00.000+08:00

Here i wanna thx to my friends and also my 2 seniors who had help me alot in my finite math's homework~
Thanks~

Wow~Time flies~
It's already the 3rd week for my college life..
I am having some new friends d..All of them are kind and nice^^
So sad tat we are going to change our timetable and changing classes next week>.<
I am in diff classes with most of my friends..T.T
So sad~~~~
Anyway, we had planned to have lunch together next week onwards if the time is available.=)
We also planned to arrange our timetable together after 4 months which is for our 2nd semester~=P
I decided to bring my camera today or tomolo to take some pics with my dear friends~
Hope tat i can make new friends who are also kind and nice with my new classmates next week>.<
Last but not least, Thank you Pang Yang, Matthew, Ching Yong for helping me so much in my studies^^

29/3/2010

2010-03-29T20:11:00.000+08:00

Today, I had my first Intermediate English class..
The lecturer is quite nice.
I have been in the same class with my classmates for few class so wont feel gan jiong like before d..
Today is the first Intermediate English class, but we already get our homework, an essay since the beginning of the class..
Having homework is actually a good thing which let us start to study since we had already rest for abt 3 months..
But I dun reli like the topic of the essay..
The topic is "My perspective of 1Malaysia concept"
I reli dun have any idea how to write it..
I never like to write any essay which is related with country, races and regions..
Hope I will be able to complete this essay in this week without any big problems~

我爱他-丁当

2010-03-28T20:14:00.000+08:00

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢

地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我

有一段感情还在飘泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭

让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他相信明天就是未来

情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

我和他不再属于这个地方

最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢

伤了痛了董了就能好了吗

曾经依靠彼此的肩膀

如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

逃不开爱越深越互相伤害

越深的依赖越多的空白

该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他相信明天就是未来

情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾就是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭

让他知道我可以很好

2010-03-22T17:52:00.000+08:00

Today i wake up early in the morning to get prepared to go for the Orientation Day in HELP..
Guess wat?
Today sucks..
In the morning when i am on the way to HELP, my aunt called,
she said tat the uncle tat teach me driving came to my house wanna bring me to driving lesson,
Tat uncle blur blur de lo, already told him tat i got class today so i wanna learn driving at 5.00 the night before,he already say ok but den he is in front of my house at 8.30am..=.=//
Nvm, i called him to remind him.
Den when i reach there, i saw 2 classmates, wow, reli is out of my expectation,
I thought the posibility for Kwang Hua student study at HELP is so low, and it's so impossible there's classmates from 5s7 will be going there..
Ok, it's suprise but consider as good news..
All the things are going smoothly during the Orientation,
But, troubles arise when we going to have our time table,
First, it's so unlucky tat i got my first lesson tml morning at 10.00,
but i am going for my driving test tml..
Second, we need to sign up for our courses online, and, the internet or the pc keep having problem..It's shit..
Ok, finally i get to log in and started to sign up for my courses..
Guess wat?
My class keep crashing together, i had to choose and choose again..
Not crashing den is dun have empty slot..Wtf..
At the end i get to finish the sign up thing..
After tat, i am rushing home becox my dad already reach half an hour before i finish signing up my courses and it's already 4.30 i have to rush back to klang to have my driving class..
I wanted to ask help from the coordinator or anyone who is incharge tat can i change my timetable so tat i wont absent for the class tml but i reli cant becox i am in the rush.
Den, on the way home, there's a stupid traffic jam,and it's raining heavily..
I wanted to call the uncle to tell him tat i cant reach home at 5.00..
So shit tat i cant reach his 012 and he dint pick up his 016..
So, i decided to call HELP to ask wat can i do if i reli cant go for class tml..
Do you know wat she say when i ask her:"i have emergency thing to do so i cant come for class tml, wat can i do??Can i change my class or wat?"
She said:"Obviously you will miss your class la.."
WTF!!
You think i got stupid tat i dunno i am missing the class izit?!!
I just wanna know can i change my class or not nia ok??!
After tat, i keep call the uncle and cant reach him..
So, i decided to call home to ask my grandma did the uncle came to fetch me..
She said no..
So, my dad fetched me to the uncle's house,
den the uncle say, now raining cant have class d..
WTF..
Cant you called to say the class will need to cancel becox of raining?!
Even if you dun wanna call, cant you just answer my phone??!!!
If you had answered the phone and tell me the class is canceled, my dad could had bring my mum to see doctor ok??!
It wont end up i cant learn driving and my mum cant see doctor..
Ok, it's not ur fault tat i cant learn driving becox who knows tat it will rain..
But wat for you wanna take 2 phones but not even answer any calls from either one?
My dad could have send my mum to see doctor in stead of rushing back home in the stupid heavy rain if you had answered my call..

When i reach home, i on my laptop and wanted to switch my timetable for the 4th week de..
When i finally going to successful change my timetable to more relavent,
suddenly i cant sign up for my Computer Principle class!!
It says, the signups is closed for this event..
Wt.....
I am so so so PEK now!!!
Why does all things going wrong today??!!!

I am sorry tat i am using rude words here, but i reli cant stand anymore..
It's the second time tat i actually cursed..
I know frens who know me well will be shock if they heard it..
But i reli beh tahan..

工作狂

2010-03-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

我就快变工作狂了，
星期六晚上竟然坐在电脑前面做工，
有时文件带回家，做工做到晚上十一点，
很累，但却会很享受那工作的感觉，
我想我真的是疯了，
我想我以后真的做工时，一定会是一个标准的工作狂~

19/03/2010

2010-03-20T15:27:00.000+08:00

Yesterday afternoon i went to One Utama to meet my old old friends..
I was so excited before i meet them, reli is so long long time dint see them d..
But, so unlucky tat, our bookworm went for the college's orientation day..
OMG,He is so blur tat dint tell us tat he is going for orientation on tat day..
We waited him for 3 to 4 hours..
Sea festival need fetch his sis to their auntie's house at 4, so the end is before bookworm come to meet us, he had to go back d..
Damn sad~
At the end 4 of us cant have a real gathering..Haiz~
Nvm, i believe tat we will still have chances to meet each other~

Oh ya, so surprisingly bookworm went to help university college,
I'm going to be in the same college with him!!
But, we are taking different courses..
Anyway, it's good to know tat there is a fren who will be going to the same college..
Hope tat next time four of us can meet up..

过去的那一夜~再见了~

2010-03-14T17:40:00.000+08:00

去年的这一天，
同样的夜，同样的时间，同样的位置，
景物依旧，但是却人面全非。。

那一夜，
他走进了我的世界，
曾经以为会是一辈子，却原来是我太天真，
毕竟，我们太年轻，太禁不起考验。。

回忆，
永远是最美好的，但也是最残酷的，
我们曾有过的回忆，不论是开心快乐的，还是痛苦难过的，
都会永远牢牢记在我心里。。
谢谢你，
曾经为我的世界添上色彩。。

曾经的眷恋，都变成曾经，
没有了你，我的世界依然美好，日子一样的过。。
想问你一句，你还恨我吗？
应该不恨了吧？因为你已不再爱我了，对吧？
我庆幸你找到一个比我更适合你的女孩，
我相信你会得到你要的爱与关怀，
我祝你幸福~

在这里说这些，
不是为了什么原因，
只为了为过去做一个真正句点，
我要告别过去，向未来迈进了~
谢谢你曾经陪我走过的日子，
谢谢你陪着我一起成长，
再见了过去~
未来，我来了！！

处女座(Virgo)

2010-03-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

处女座(Virgo)

都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为'状态'。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。

而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)
因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。　　
很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：
要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹
；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。

其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。

所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人. 而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离'。

原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。
不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于'洁癖'并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的'完美'格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关于'花心'一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关于'聪明'不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。

没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。关于'单纯'处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。

处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。
不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于'幽默'都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于'迟钝'别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。

关于'自私'处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）
因为处女不想伤害任何人。关于'逃避'由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。

当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于'内涵'处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。
他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。
处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

2010-03-08T21:08:00.000+08:00

Going to get our SPM results this thurs..
Should be gan jiong right??

BUT~
Now at this moment,
SPM results?Go far far away, dun come kacao me now...

TML IS DRIVING TEST~~
It is more important den SPM results at this moment!!!
CHIONG AH!!!!!!!!!

No way to break my family records!!!!
MUST PASS THE TEST TOMORROW!!!!!
CHIONG AH!!!!!!!

27/02/10

2010-02-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

现在是凌晨十二点半。。
我在十分钟前才回到家。。
比较认识我的朋友一定觉得我这么迟回家应该是和家人外出吧?
如果你也这么想的话，那就错了哦~

昨天，也就是二月二十七号的傍晚，
我吃完晚饭后，便坐wc的车和por,hilmi,wilson,sl去jj看戏。。
我们看的戏是花田喜事~
那部戏还蛮ok的。。
它的故事大纲还蛮简单的，但很多笑点。。
如果单纯想舒解压力，轻松笑一笑的话，的确是一个不错的选择。。
看完戏后，我亲爱的朋友们便吵着肚子饿。。
我们便去吃东西~

之后，我们去weii的家载她然后去看烟花~
我们拍了满多张照片~
今晚并不是我第一次看烟花，但是是我第一次和朋友一起看烟花，也是第一次出夜街~
说真的，和朋友晚上去看戏，出夜街，
除了毕业旅行，还真的没试过~
Por整晚说了三次，在那种时间和地点还见到我真的很稀奇~
连我自己都觉得不可思议~

很高兴我第一次出夜街是和他们一起，
我真的很久没那么轻松自在，
也好久没那样和他们谈天说地，一起笑得像疯人一样了~
说真的，我很高兴有你们这班朋友~
谢谢你们走进我世界里~

我爱你们~^v^

270210

2010-02-27T17:45:00.001+08:00

Today, i went back to kwang hua with wilson,hilmi,weechuan,shinlin and ah por..
It's kinda weird when i am standing there..
Reli is new leader,new member, new band..
The band reli changes every year when changing a new batch of ajks..

But i still miss you guys..
Sorry tat i'm being so talkative and so noisy again today..
I know i shouldn't say so much anymore..
I am no more brasspart's sl..
I'm just an ex member..
Sorry if i reli did something over which an ex member shouldn't be doing..

Gambateh to you guys~

After visiting my dear juniors, we went to bbk for lunch at Red Chilli..
The food are quite ok, not bad..
Feel so free when chatting with my dear frenz..
Seriously, after my class trip, i dun reli hang out with my frenz even my s7's classmates..
Long time dint laugh or act like siao po d..
Reli is only in band or with my old teammates i wont keep my own feelings..
I'm sorry tat i cant do tat when i'm with my old classmates..
Reli sorry..
It's reli yi han tat i neglected my s7's classmates last year becox of paying more attention and time in band..
Anyway, no use regretting for the past..
Thank you to every single fren who had walk into my life, and who had reli cared me..
THX~

love pass

2010-02-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

Love makes the time pass. Time makes love pass...

2010-02-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

If our love is only a will to possess,it is not love~

一心想占有的爱情不是真正的爱情~

天使的距离

2010-02-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

天使的距离

那一天那一个瞬间
遇见了你世界突然有了意义
每一分每一秒被你牵引
好想保护你却又不敢靠近

如果凡人爱上了天使的笑容
该怎么拥有？
是否你愿意为我坠入凡尘

你有天使的眼睛
美丽幻化成流星
消失前照亮我的天空
却不留轨迹
你有天使的羽翼
展开随风飞离
来不及
不敢说得秘密就是我爱你
遥远的距离

我满喜欢这首歌，好听，歌词也满不错的~
它是一部台湾偶像剧的插曲

15/02/2010

2010-02-15T17:29:00.000+08:00

前几天，突然又再想起你了。说真的，已经很久没再为你心疼了。那天，却又再为你流下我以为早已流尽，干枯的泪。你的眼神、你的笑容、你的温柔、你的脸庞、你的表情、你的背影、你的一切一切，在我脑海里不断地闪过。是思念吗？还是想你已成了我的习惯？

不管如何，对你来说，思念这两个字，不会再用在我身上吧?不知为何，这个认知即时过了这么久，依然会令我的心揪痛。

爱一个人，是要给他，他想要的而不是你想给的~
你想要的是自由，不想我再在干涉你的世界，
所以，我离开了。
我做不到一百巴仙，但至少除了逼不得已，我不会再出现在你的世界里~

我最后能做的只有祝福你~
祝你，幸福快乐~

心情日记

2010-02-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

好累~
工作真的比读书还累很多。。。
好怀念我的中学时期噢~
想念在班上上课的感觉~
甚至很想念在铜乐队那种天天忙到爆，气到爆的日子~
他们会想念我吗？应该不会吧？
那么凶，那么吵，那么啰嗦，那么长气，那么多话的我，应该没多少人会想我吧？
去年的这个时候我在干吗呢？
说真的，我也忘了~
在忙着选pelantik吗？
在开始band忙碌的生活吗？
还是开始疯狂地担心功课，学业？
如果没记错，我应该也在忙着做一件满疯狂的事吧~

人是该向前冲，不该回头看~
但我是一个很念旧的人，
而且很奇怪的是，别人觉得不重要的事往往我都记得很深刻~

好想回到过去~
可惜，我不是小叮当，没有时光机可带我回到过去~

2010-01-24T18:28:00.000+08:00

I can close my eyes to things I don't want to see,
but I can't close my heart to the things I don't want to feel...

2010-01-24T17:52:00.000+08:00

CHINA
C=come
H=here,
I=I
N=need
A=affection.

ITALY
I=I
T=trust
A=and
L=love
Y=you

NEPAL
N=never
E=ever
P=part
A=as
L=lovers

MALAYSIA
M=memories
A=are
L=lovable
A=as
Y=yielding
S=sweet
I=infinite
A=anniverysary

时间

2010-01-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

时间，
即使真的能冲淡心里的伤痛，
但是疤痕永远都会留在心底里。。。

时间，
也许能让我淡忘这段情，
时间，
也许会把回忆深埋，
但是，
时间无法改变曾经发生的事实。。。

我的世界因为有了你所以才变得完整

2010-01-21T01:47:00.000+08:00

我的世界因为有了你所以才变得完整
我很爱这句话
因为它所代表的意义比我爱你更令我感动。
因为也许给予你爱的承诺的人，除了你，他也爱别人。
他爱你，但你却不是他的唯一。。。
又或者，爱情在他生命里，根本就只是生活的调剂，一点都不重要。。

我的世界因为有了你所以才变得完整
它所代表的是，
即使爱情在我生命中并不是最重要的，
即使你不是我生活的重心，
即使你不是我的全部，
但是，你在我生命中，绝对扮演着很重要很重要的角色。
人的一生就像是拼图一样，
要不停的寻找，
才能找到你生命里缺乏的一块块的图案。
如果没有了你，
我的拼图不会有完整的一天，
我的世界不管如何都会缺了一角。

对于爱情，
我从来不祈求能成为任何人生命中的唯一，
也不渴望成为任何人的生活中心，
我只希望，
有人心里能为我留下一个位置。。。

2010-01-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

了解一个不了解你的人很辛苦,
了解一个不了解你甚至不承认也不认为你了解他的人更辛苦，
甚至是心痛和心碎。。。

This is a quote tat is translated from the english version which you can see it on my dear fren ls's blog..actually she copied tat sentence from the msg tat i sent her..XD..you can see the original version on her blog..aeiou7100.blogspot.com.

But it's reli how i feel..I reli experienced it before..The heart will reli break into pieces..Hope it will not happen again..

29/12/09

2009-12-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

During spm, my parents keep asking me wat course i wanna take after spm n wat college i wanna go..
Each n everytime i gave them the same answer..
I say i dunno...
They always say, how can you say dunno since spm is going to end soon?why you wont worry abt it de?
Everytime when they say so i will feel so pekcek...
Cox i did worry abt it..
But i reli dunno wat i wanna study n which college i wanna go...
This feel is getting worse when i found tat many of my frens already planned wat they wanna do after spm..
But now, i find tat compare with my frens, i know more n more confirm abt wat i wanna study n where to study next year or even wat to study after my pre-u..
I'm wondering, izit tat actually i already know wat i want from the beginning, just tat i dun dare or dun wanna face the fact tat i'm leaving high skul?
Anyway, at least now i know wat i wanna n wat i need to do..

2009-12-21T15:11:00.001+08:00

These few days reli alot things happen..
They happened in a sudden..
Till now i still cant get use to it...
I now still in abit blur blur situation...
Maybe not i blur, is just tat i dun wanna face the fact..

Just back from trip

2009-12-21T14:20:00.000+08:00

Hohoho...
I just came back from classtrip yesterday..
It's reli fun to play n chat with frens..
We reli play till very siao le..
Although just came back from the trip, but i already started to miss them d..
I hope we still have chance to go trip together again le...
I LOVE 5S7!!! Mwa mwa XXX

2009-12-18T14:37:00.000+08:00

冲动地做出一个决定是要付出代价的。。。
如果时间可以倒流，
我一定不会再走回这条路。。。
无奈的是，
没有人能重写自己的人生。。。
我们唯有在错误中吸取教训，
不再犯同样的错。。。
可是，
我却一错再错。。。

23/11/2009

2009-11-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

Love?
What is love?
I had failed in this field not only once...
I think i won't have the courage to step into it again...
Anyway, i will let the past to be the past...
I will let go of it d...
I wanna say thank you to spm..
You let me concentrate on studies n give me a chance to slowly let go abt the past...

To:my dear frens,
dun need worry abt me d...
I will be ok...Reli ok d...
N thx for helping me n supporting me in these few months..
Thank you...

2009-11-14T20:01:00.000+08:00

I am lost...
I dunno wat to do...
I dun even know wat am i doing...
I just remember tat i need to study study n study for SPM n also........................
Wat can i do?
Wat should i do?
I'm now damn emo~~
I'm now in blur blur situation~~

11/11/09

2009-11-11T17:02:00.000+08:00

I wish nothing had happen before...
I hope i never know wat's happening...
I just dun wanna know!!!
I hope i wont care abt you...
I hope i wont worry abt you...
I hope i dun emo becox of you...
I hope i wont get hurt just becox of your words...
I hope i wont be crying here just becox of you...

BUT.........

No matter how many times you hurt me,
No matter how many times I cried for you,
No matter how sad or how despressed am i just becox of you,
I'm still standing here right beside you...
Just for you...

I was once trying to leave,
I tried to run away...
But, now, i'm still here...
I wont run away again...
I swear i wont...
No matter how, i will still be here,
Just becox of you...

2009-11-09T19:34:00.000+08:00

I dunno who should i believe to....
There are too many things happening around me since the day before graduation day till now...
I'm now reli in a blur blur stage..
I hope to clear my mind..
But i failed to do so...
Wat shall i do??
Just wait n see wat's going on n just do nothing abt it??
I reli dunno wat to do...

Stupid!!

2009-11-07T14:07:00.001+08:00

I hate it!!!
I reli hate it so much when you say something like tat!!!
My heart is bleeding...
I wanna cry but i cant even cry..
It's more pek than crying..
I reli hate it so so so so much!!
I feel like wanna slap you!!

7/10/09

2009-11-07T11:56:00.000+08:00

Something had happened in a sudden...
N it also ended in a sudden...
Someone had become blur blur n did something tat make him very regret..
I know wat he say to me n wat he had done is becox he's so blur n not realising who is the one he reli cares abt..
But i'm glad tat he wake up n realise his mistake so early..
Hope tat someone can forgive him...
N also hope tat tis mistake wont cox him regret in his rest of his life...

2009-11-05T17:25:00.000+08:00

Tomolo will be my graduation day...
I reli cant believe it's the end of my secondary skul life...
Time is flying...
I will miss Kwang Hua...
I will miss my frens especially my classmates...
I love 5S7!!
I know i had spent alot of time for band n almost half a year not in class every year...
But these two years, you all reli gave me many memorable memories...
I will remember you all in the rest of my life!!
GAMBATEH in tomolo's graduation performance!!
5S7 IS THE BEST!!!

1/11/09

2009-11-01T09:55:00.000+08:00

有些事我一早就预料到了...
虽然有了心理准备,可是当事情真正摆在眼前时原来是如此难受...
我知道有些朋友不能尽信,但我不想戴上我的面具...
甚至欺骗自己他们是可信的...
我不想再当无知小女孩...
我想学会保护我自己...
过去发生的事我无法去改变,也无法彻底忘记...
但我会把它当成教训,提醒我自己以后不再犯一样的错...

生病了

2009-10-26T18:29:00.000+08:00

上个星期五我生病了...
不是感冒发烧,而是不消化..=.=
造成一直肚子不舒服,一直吐,很累...
整整两天我就一直躺着,即使坐着也得靠着椅背...
如果坐着没靠椅背太久或站着就会头晕...
整个人一点力气也没有...
原本星期五早上我还打算硬撑去学校的...
结果,到学校就吐,只好打电话给我爸叫他弯回来载我...
晚上jen说第二天可能有练习,我就想说如果第二天好一点的话就去看看,即使不能跳也看看他们学什么,最后有人sms来说取消了...
可是当天晚上已经超过十一点半了才收到tieng sms说明天去berkeley篮球场练舞...
那个时候我已经睡着了咯...
受不了他们天天last minute...
我第二天早上才看到那sms...
不过也没用,因为我连站都站不了要怎样去?
到了今天病是好了但还没完全痊愈,体力也还没恢复...
下午只是练一下下的舞,回到家已经整个人散了,冲完凉就躺在那边动不了...
希望我快点恢复体力,能有精神好好读书,练舞...
加油!!

Today

2009-10-22T18:49:00.000+08:00

Today, we went to Xiao Ling's house to practice our dance...
The first time all the gals tat dance balley dance present...XD
But so sad tat i need to go back at 3 something to rush for tuition...
Reli long time dint feel so tired d...
Not enough sleep+dancing+tuition make me so tired...
But i still can take it la...
At least it's better den band practice...
I can see everyone is improving n more enjoy dancing d...
It's a good news..
Hope tat everyone can pay more effort to practice n show our best on the graduation day...

祝福

2009-10-21T16:37:00.000+08:00

最幸福的事

当过你的天使

现在的我

还做不到潇洒地离开

但是

为了你

我绝对能够坚强地

站在这里

为你送上最深的祝福

我会一直的一直在你身后

祝福你

也守护着你

当你累了跌倒了受伤了

只要你愿意

我一定会到你身边帮你

我只有一个要求

你一定要找到属于你的幸福

你要幸福哦!